ready

poop


don't be too alarmed by the poop today.  it's still good, just green family instead of tan.  not yellow, though.


i'm so ready...


for us to go home.
to cook my family a meal.
to sit at our dinner table.
to have a conversation with my husband.
to get all the paperwork filled out- which means it has to be MADE/DRAWN UP-
to order all the necessary things to take care of Ridge at home
for Ridge to get older so this will be "over."
to spend time with our friends
to jump on the trampoline with my son
to put up my Christmas tree and wrap our presents
to clean my house (it isn't dirty- i'm just ready to get to clean it MYSELF)
to put the laundry where it belongs
to find the book i finished but can't remember where it got put at home
to live somewhere constantly- instead of hospital, car, home, car, & back again
for sawyer to stop being disobedient and acting out
to find a hobby
to work with students again
to see yellow poop every day
to have a baby w/out wires
to take a bath instead of a crappy hospital shower
to have a full fridge and pantry again
to stop feeling so unorganized...bc that is not me
to go to church again
to get on with life.....


so ready i could just scream.